My short term Dream list

I have extremely meticulous,extremely long term, plans.

What I have realized in the past 4 years is that Aiming for the moon straight away gets you nowhere

Better to have a SHORT TERM PLAN for the immediate future, in addition to a LONG LONG LONG TERM PLAN

So yeah, the SHORT TERM DREAM LIST is as follows

1/Try actively to seek medical help and NOT IGNORE my medical problems.Try actively and schematically and finally cure myself.Get super healthy as soon as possible

2/Not constantly fret over perfectionism but at the same time give it my all and achieve my short term career goal which has been 4 years in completion.

3/Try to balance my health problems and career goals together...I lose focus on the career each time I get sick.I cannot do that anymore

Once the above three fall in place, all others will fall in place.

Go read my archives  to read my LONG LONG LONG TERM PLAN FOR LIFE..Hope I make it "hale and healthy" to fulfil all those long term goals.I think I shall and I will, If I actively try to get healthy...keep running the marathon till I reach the finish line of super good health

The past 4 years-The difference between being 28 yrs old and 32yrs old-A BIG FAT BLUR?

What have I done in the past four years?
Oct 2007...Some hope died...Oct 2007 to August 2011
A BIT FAT BLUR
I got older by four years.
I told him, "I have faced far more serious problems than these way back in 2008, and yet I had this intense cocky courage to want to deal with all of them alone and Look at me now, I am a whimpering weakling full of fear...This is not even half as serious as what I faced in 2008"
He silently and matter-of-factly told me " Back then,I think you had something to hope for,,to count on, to look forward to...Right now, you see no hope I guess...which is why you are plagued by this intense fear"
I mused " so true, I had the power of youth on my side four years ago..now suddenly i have gotten 4 years older with nothing to show for"

I have gotten four years older..There is a big difference between 28 and 32...being 27 is even better..You are just on the verge of fulfilling your life dream...you took pains to get there and you have a whole life ahead of you...4 years down the line..You remember the lines of this 34 yr old guy whom you rejected when you were 27, telling him that 34 was "too old" for you...and then that guy warned you,," Don't judge by age..Lest you end up being 34 and just like me"
Here I am..suddenly reaching 34...very soon...and actually being like him on some level.
4 YEARS , A BIG FAT BLUR